He's also written an article about his recent Ayahuasca experience guided by a "real shaman from Ecuador", in which the recurring theme is how incredibly much his private parts were shrinking:
http://www.lotusjoy.nl/senia-melchizedek-ahyuascha-ceremonie/Google translate: "This was my first time that I was going to do what I found very exciting but also a bit unsure about was a real ahyuasca ceremony day ayuascha I could not eat anything except a very small breakfast in the morning, I just ate some crackers and a cup bouljion and for the rest I drank a lot of water.
In the afternoon I lie down as the ceremony began only at 21.00 o'clock in the evening I decided just to rest and a few hours to go to sleep so i kept enough energy for the evening and night.
A friend of mine who also Ron was going to do the ceremony came to pick me and I must confess that I was terrible at all certainly looked at 2 or 3 weeks to ayuascha ceremony to go since I do not really know what awaits me stood, Ron stood at the door and rang the bell and I opened the door and we gave each other a hug, he helped me to put my sleeping bag, mat and bag in the trunk of the car and was once Ron arrived at my house began nerves by vultures, my body pffff what a nerve, but I was determined to do the ceremony because a bit has at least one ayuascha experience had a shaman so I went for it.
Years ago I would have settled LSD, ecstasy, mushrooms etc.. used but this was something totally different and I was fully aware of me.
When everything was in the car we went, it was a very special ceremony ayuascha be because there was a real ayuascha shaman from Ecuador to the Netherlands to do the ceremony and guide.
Once at the destination we stepped out of the car and we dragged our stuff, we were led to a large clearing where a big tepee stood around and were all artistic objects, it dawned on me until later that we on an old abandoned military area were what was squatted by squatters.
When we entered inside the tipi we saw people everywhere sitting and lying in the middle of the tipi was a very large hot campfire and the atmosphere was great, the energy that was super, Gwen (Shamanic a friend of ours) caught us and we gave each other a hug and she had in my mind a place reserved for me because it was full and busy everywhere except between her and Fred (another friend who was there), they had a place reserved for me between them and I felt a lot safer since Fred and Gwen ayuascha experienced drinkers felt very nice for me.
I put my mat and sleeping bag on the floor and then Gwen said of, I'll get you to meet Miguel de Ayuascha shaman, I stood up and walked her to him, I wanted to give him a hand but he grabbed me right , and gave me a loving hug and welcomed me, I was in my delighted and felt totally included me in the group even though I had not met in the teepee, everyone I asked Gwen where the toilet was, she walked with me note to show that the squatters had made a toilet and we walked to an open area next to the tipi and I saw that they had made of sticks which is approximately one and a half feet tall with a cloth around it a sort of triangular pyramid-like figures , they had dug a hole for when you would get diarrhea burden in the middle you could do, sawdust etc.. therein lay beside the hole and I did not think of here I'm going to hang up his life days with my ass and hoped I would get diarrhea. no charge
When we came back in the teepee Miguel began to prepare for there was another shaman who helped him or rather the people helped if they needed anything or if they had to go out and they could not walk etc. which obviously with me yet sometimes might come in handy ..
Before we started the ayuascha Miguel began the shaman to invoke the spirits and the ceremony was officially started and I thought to myself, okay, let's go to the end because I'm a Warrior, but I had no idea what I was ahead and my Warrior Shelf was put to the test.
We started sniffing tobacco water and that was in each nostril, "oh my god" which burned to say and my nose and everything in my head was completely pulled open and then I felt a slight high effect, it was long ago that I drugs had and knew the high impact what is was nice, despite the pleasant feeling started again to play on my nerves violently and I literally felt that my penis began to shrink including my balls, at that moment I knew anything violent stood happen because the last thing I was doing was denying my body signals.
Miguel grabbed a large Coke bottle and poured a small glass with half ayuascha for the participants, I saw the glass in going round and Miguel donated personally to everyone and looked at the amount they needed, I held the glass in focus the holes and saw the amount ayuascha in the glass go and so knew what I would get, or so I thought, as Miguel stood beside me when I saw Fred again that he almost gave the glass half full for him, Fred drank it and Miguel then stood with me, I had no time to think or feel me even more nervous because this was the big moment that I was drinking, Miguel looked at me and poured the glass almost half full, he looked at me again and poured something and now it was the glass half full and when he looked back at me and gave something in my glass was almost three quarters full and I did not look at it and took the glass and drank everything, in my mind what it tasted like beer I will not drink, and I washed some with water.
Now it was waiting for the impact, 30 minutes had passed and I saw a number of participants who first had drunk that they had to surrender the ayuascha so I knew it was my turn true, I followed soon after and threw up but nothing came out, yuck what a dirty feeling, my balls now reduced even more and I threw up what I have as a very annoying experience, a number of times I looked at Gwen and asked her if this is so by, the whole evening go and they assured me that that was not the case so I was again slightly reassured but still felt a slight panic, I lay down and tried to find some peace and vomiting subsided some so I could relax me, I felt what stoned and suffered from a lachkik and started getting some to laugh and I thought if it is then this is a Peule of pie and a big party, now what did I do mistaken.
When we were about an hour away began to do ayuascha are violent and it came in a kind of gusts, and when it arrived I was so terribly stoned I did not know how I did, I could not even move my arms and could only lie.
Miguel de Shaman started singing and it was a pretty annoying sound because I only heard nininininininini and I always heard hissing I could not bring home and ayuascha became ever fiercer and fiercer, and I thought of oooo my god where am I I started to want to go home NOW, but that just did not work and had this whole roller coaster ride from sitting.
At one time I was this crazy that I felt that I started to lose my consciousness I felt my consciousness so fly away with my etheric hands I tried to catch my consciousness but could for a yard, ayuascha was too strong and took my consciousness along and I lost consciousness and fell off when I regained happened exactly the same again, I lost my consciousness and I tried to capture still and poof away I was, this happened a total of 3 times in a row which really terrible was, I was still rather be dead instead of this so full longer need to keep.
When I awoke I was still this crazy as a door but I knew I had to stay calm and not to oppose me, I saw that Miguel was on and the other participants a shamanic healing began to give, I'll just explain what a shamanic healing, it was a purification of spirits and heavy energy that you carry in your energy field or body, Miguel had a very large leaf from the jungles of Ecuador took it and I saw that he did something with it but thought I'd see as it is with me because I was still so slate as a door, in the meantime I went and watched my thoughts were and everything was in a cartoon form, I saw the lies of my ego and I could pick up as and throw away from my memory, it was weird that I saw everything in a cartoon and I thought then as I am of this, I'm pretty crazy, I saw snakes crawl together which is a bit like a tattoo I have, when I saw these images I heard the Shaman in the background singing with his terrible ninininininini sounds, in my peripheral vision I always heard that hissing again and it was getting stronger and stronger, I turned around to ask if he could hear it in Fred but I saw that he was too heavy, he was some muttering to himself I could not understand well late but I thought and turned me back my own way, I also had my Mesa (which my medicine bag is) taken and was placed against the side of my head what I used half as a pillow, I asked the Queros the medicine men in the infinity and the White Brotherhood and the Archangels if they wanted to assist in this process vehement me.
My perception was so special, I always saw a kind of black lightning in the middle of the tipi and then suddenly stood Miguel at me in Spanish that said to me that I had to sit upright phew that's impossible because I thought my body felt like rubber and I had absolutely no strength, sit up he said sternly and with all my strength I tried to sit up straight, I fell again and again and again I crawled up to sit right, he had the great leaf out of the jungle in his hand and started me with it on my head to store and began again to sing that awful ninininini song I felt my nausea resurgence but I refused it to surrender, yuck what a horrible fucking feeling was that say, Miguel also had a large bottle in his hands that consisted of homemade florida water, an alcoholic drink with herbs in it, he took a sip and spit it all over me, the smell was so overwhelming that I like my bucket had to address to surrender and I went all the way loose, this is too much for me I said softly, let me lie down and die, but Miguel told me to sit right because he was not ready, I felt so very helpless and did not know what to do because my body just did not work with it, after about 5 minutes (which seemed to last an eternity in my opinion) he continued to Gwen and I thought of "Yes I can finally lie down again and I was freed from that awful sitting position. It felt very bad because my penis was so small.
After a few hours I felt I had to pee but had no energy or strength to stand and I had something of oh I love it though, in the time between ayuascha came in gusts and I went like a rocket in the roller coaster of ayuascha note, I had a slight numbness in my balls and the visions came around, gosh I had been busy, Fred asked me how I was doing and I said I was this crazy and that the a recognizable feeling was the ayuascha, and it was really because I knew ayuascha, it felt to me like a violent fever with severe flu at least if I have a fever and flu had and I went to sleep then I recognized this feeling and I saw visions and immediately I thought of: I will ayuascha as I've always known this and have felt? Yes I said, I'm ayuascha and poof there I went on the roller coaster with ayuascha.
The feeling of urination was getting stronger and stronger and I realized that I had stopped the already over 5 hours and was now about to burst, how do I do this now I thought?
I feel as limp as a dish cloth and you may not get up but knew that if I did not go now, I would have Fred & Gwen totally under pissed and I'll have myself never forgive all my life, so I picked up all the energy which I could only find two together and got up and walked barefoot directly on the fire and thought of Now I roasted peanuts, at that time was the other shaman and stopped me and grabbed me tightly, I said I had to go outside and he helped me to the exit of the tipi.
Once outside I saw just about 15 to 20 feet away homemade toilets and thought still no no I'm not going to save and turned a quarter turn and peed directly into the bushes next to the tipi,.
Apparently my pisstraal was so strong the flow that a woman at the entrance was in the teepee heard it and looked out at what happened and laughed very hard when she saw me pee so I felt what annoyed me, and I ayuhasca wanted to apologize because my penis had made me so small I did not make a joke with a remark that my penis was a little shy in unfamiliar surroundings but that did not matter because as I heard ayhuasca ayhuasca say love yet again with those silly jokes and be serious, oops I felt caught me by ayhuasca and kept my mouth shut.
Once excreted through urine stumbled in the teepee back inside where the auxiliary shaman grabbed me again and escorted me to my place, I found myself delivered from a big fight and realized how heavy I have not had it with that full bladder of me and was love happy that I did not have to defecate or suffering from diarrhea like many others, I myself had never seen so top hole on my heels because I was confident in my ass hole cases with other people's shit on my ass, oh well shit happens but fortunately not for me. My penis though were still tiny.
I glanced at my phone to see what time it was because I thought it gave been and wish it had worked, it was now five o'clock in the morning and I was still in the roller coaster where my belt buckles are firmly had and then came ayhuasca again and took me into a deep trip, I heard Miguel say that if someone wants to sing that may, at the same time and then I thought oh no dude still do not because who knows what everyone looks stalls and you can all the time listening to that caterwauling of others because I thought of him bad enough let alone that some jantje smit also another begins, and then someone began in Spanish with a hoarse voice sing what still sounded pretty fun and I enjoyed singing along with ayuhusca that went as 15 minutes and then someone else took over, the person who took over was a french beautiful young lady with frizzy hair just incredibly beautiful as a big afro, her face was beautiful and they also had something of an outside nature race of the Pleiades, she picked up her flute and began to play and I thought at that time, hey that's the Eagle F Sharp or the High Spirit Flute I also have and enjoyed her delicious flute concert.
I myself was not able to play anything at all because I was still long and found it fine with me.
When these oh so beautiful french Pleiadian alien beauty had finished the flute, I saw in my peripheral vision a large UFO-like metal round emerge disk and when it came, this was the best music concert I had ever heard in my life this young man played the Hang Drum.
He began to play and at that time I was the one insight after another and it seemed to downloads that from nothing came in to me and I understood everything, I saw everything and knew everything as a whole and with that amazing magic show of the Hang instrument everything fell into place, it was delicious and he would have certainly played an hour which was simply magnificent. feeling for my
By now we were a while longer and it was light outside and I saw that people began to awaken the ahyuascatrip and myself sat there completely and flipped a bit because I was done with it but apparently ayuascha not with me, I asked Fred how he felt and he said that again began to come in while I was still in a cool trip and felt some panic come up because it did not decrease with me, that moment came Miguel again along with the tobacco water and we could go sniffing again, he said it was important to inhale tobacco water because then you would be faster to come, so I took a best snuff in both nostrils and I became as still high so I regret was that I did it, but after about 15 minutes that feeling was sunk and it went a little better with me, only it was the ayhuasca still vehemently working with me so I thought that it was better to just take a breath of fresh air because it was Finally 9:00 in the morning, gosh what a heady trip.
I went stumbling out and that was little better than last night and felt the sun shining in my face, the fresh air did me good but it did the operation of the ahyuasca not less be when I decided to just sit down at outside to arrive.
After about 30 minutes I had sat outside inwards again as the ceremony concluded, Miguel thanked the spirits who had helped us and finished the whole thing off, when there were some dishes brought along with chunks of beef, vegetables and maize which you could eat but I got it for no possibility of my throat back and have it in a paper towel wrapped to give as an offering to the fire at that time Ron asks me if I was ready to go and inside was my answer Noooo because I was still pretty in ahyuasca trip, the other auxiliary shaman saw that and gave me the advice that if I was at home than to eat what I find with a nice big glass of cola there and then I quickly recover again, Ron had bought two bottles of coke for both of us so we quickly arrived at, on the road at the gas station Ron was chicken sober and felt super fit but me.
Once at home I stumbled out of the car which Ron laughed and I saw the compassion in his eyes which I realized that I was literally in the ahyuasca trip was what was just super intense, later when I had spoken with Gwen she also said that this the strongest ahyuasca was that Miguel had ever made and everyone had slightly complained or said anything about, all in all I + - 30 hours into the trip ahyuasca been in place from 8 to 10 hours where everyone had talked about on Friday night at 21:00 ahyuasca began the ceremony and I was not sober on Saturday night at 2:30 pm to be precise, and what pfff trip but I did not want to miss it because I have seen and learned, Ahyuasca has given me a great lesson learned about letting go of control and has given me many insights about who and what I am and also the old me slain so I could be born again ahyuasca has literally all my puzzle pieces put in place.
Ahyuasca thanks for the great insights and gifts you have given me, it was a very strong inner struggle with myself but I triumphed because I have taken the step to do the ceremony and the confrontation with my inner to go and I found the subsequent great but it was definitely my last trip ayuascha."
