Eric
Well, this has gone from simple questions, to people doubting who I am, to geneology, to just being frustrated
Eric, these aren't simple questions and they aren't all about you and your Mother. Look At the title of this thread . Whatever the answers are, they have to be practical to fairly apply to everyone, such as all your cousins and everyone of the same description.
Eric
It would ease my mother's nerves - she doesn't even have much time to live anyway - 2 years max due to cancer. This has been a battle for us all this time, trying to be recognized, by the tribe our blood is of.
The way you are going about it is most likely to alienate you completely. Why - because you come across like you think that however this is defined it should be all about you and what you want, not the bigger picture, or what is needed to retain the long term health of tribe and culture.
Eric
And when I marry (and I have my own eyes on the look out), and have children, I want my children to know their heritage, like what my mother and I would learn when we become enrolled
I think MatoSiWin asked you a really good question. Why do you feel you need to be enrolled in a tribe?
You already are a citizen of a Nation which has many members with similar blood lines to yourself - and with each generation of more intermarriages there will be more. It's caled the tribe of the USA.
If you don't like how your tribe is conducting itself , do something about it from within. Looking to be enrolled in tribe that pretends your prominantely non native heritage doesn't exist just seems you are searching for other people who will support you in your denial. You don't need t be enrolled in any tribe to practice and encourage traditional morals and values and an indigenous sense of responsibility .
Those specific protected sensitve cultral traditions you say you want to practice almost always loose their meaning outside the context of a deeply rooted contiunously existing tradition which is practiced and known by the whole community . Why not find strength and joy from leaving them where they belong , and knowing they are still being practiced in a good way? It seems non native people with their strong emphasis on the importance of the individual always think what is most important is that they personally have the opprotunity to be in whatever role they choose, but if you were more in touch with real Native cultures and not just your fantasy of it, you would know there is many roles within a native society which are only performed by selected people within that society, and not everyone who is enrolled in a nation can do whatever they like with that Nations culture and ceremonies.
But you mentioned wanting government funding- and I suppose these suggestions would not satisfy that .
IMO Your children would have a lot better chance of knowing a bit of their REAL heritage if you could be more realistic and respectful of the limitations that come with having a mostly non native background.
The way you talk you sound like that nightmare house guest that was welcome to stay 3 days and stays 3 months and you have to get the police to evict them. You sure wouldn't get invited to visit again ...
If you discovered you had a gr gr grandmother who came from Africa would you be obbessing about how you had wrongly been denied the right to be a citizen of a country in Africa?
For that matter a lot of your European ancestors were wrongly forced out of their homelands. Why don't you feel ripped off that you aren't eligible for English socal programs ? Your way of selecting just what you want from your own background and stringing it together into a story of entitlements seems really dishonest.
Eric
And what irks me so much is people like Barnaby and Mama-Porcupine who swears I am just white, and doesn't want to recognize the NDN part of me.
I never said that. I said you are 15/16 non native - and your family also has had a long immersion in a non native cultural background. I just pointed out you seem to be desparate to deny the vaste majority of your heritage
Eric
I was taught that you had to either be white, or be NDN...even told this by an elder I spoke to down in Cherokee, NC
I think thats true in a way. Kind of like that bible parable about a rich man not being able to enter the kingdom of heaven any easier than a camel can pass through the eye of a needle.
Native ways of thinking tend to be about the community and past and future generations, and are therefore too big to fit into non native ways of thinking which tends to be more about acheiving short term individual satisfaction. So people can't hold both world views at once.
But in another way I don't think it's true that people are either native or nonnative . For example the Metis people are truely a mix of both. There are many people who have real influences from both cultures and world veiws and are niether purely European or purely Ndn - and I think you are one of them . Some of these people manage to integrate this and do something with it to make the world a better place. You could be one of those , but you need to start putting the long term health and survival of the culture and true cultural values ahead of your individual fanatsies and desires.
Why not work to reform the colonial European culture from within, into a culture that is more respectful of indigenous values? Why not adopt a long term goal to preserve these basic traditional values , morals and responsibilities , so that in over the next 400 years the influence of increasing mixing might lead to an improved American society ? Why not work to protect indigenous communities so they continue to have enough control of theior own cultures and resources to maintain a strong and vibrant culture.
I don't mean I think the best way to do this is by everyone wanting to directly paticipate in indigenous cultures. Or worse do shallow imitations of ceremonies - Sometimes the best support is just by learning and teaching others to stay out of the way.
We all benifit from making sure indigenous peoples have what they need to maintain their cultures, and the knowledge and values of these cultures does have extremely positive influences on everyone it touches - often in very ordinary day to day transactions.
Eric
There are MANY people who have NDN blood in them that aren't fed. recognized
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It's a bit creepy the way you keep thinking it is all about blood even a very tiny amount of it- and you put so little importance on people living in a community which has retained it's family relationships , Native identity and culture.
When you repeatedly put so much emphasis on blood , it's like you are turning being an Ndn into a commodity like having a bottle of fine wine, or a gold ring.
Eric
To each of your answers, you have pretty much showed that you're self-centered
No Eric, it is you who is sounding very self centered.
Eric
but it makes me know there's always going to be a handful of people like you for each tribe/nation, and those troublemakers are those I need to stay away from
I know you don't see this , but what you are saying is that Native people who have strongly retained theur culture and identity are trouble makers because they interfer with you redefining what an Ndn is to include predominantely non native people such as yourself. Your lack of respect for Native peoples authority to define themselves and their own people and communities , once again sounds like the way nonnative people think about things. You sound like yo are dismissing Ndns as non people or incompetant to control their own resources - which you have decided you want.
Your world veiw has repeatedly come across sounds as very self centered and non native to me.
This being the case, I really think you should look into some of the wrongs done to your European ancestors and see what sort of reimbursments or repatriations you might be entitled to on the basis of that part of your families heritage. Such claims would be a lot more realistic .
About the only thing I agree with you on is that many families who moved to a distant place don't recall much about grandparents and greatgrandparents, and unless everybody has stayed in the same community it can take an effort to learn about your family background. It's true some families hid their Native ancestry - but I honestly think that for every family that did this all the nieghbors gossiped and the nieghborhood children who heard bits of hushed stories often mistakenly passed these on as stories, but telling them as if the Ndn grandma was their own.
What Earth is saying is real. If you don't know your Ndn relatives and grandparents you aren't Ndn . You may have some mixed blood and even some sensitivity so some parts of Native ways , but this just makes you a non native person with some Native influences. Who we are is much more about the communities we live in and the relationships we have, than being an individual in possesion of something- whether that is fine wine, gold or a tiny bit of ndn blood .
Just my opinion , but I hope this helps you get a bit of perspective and to understand what is being said here.