Hi Apukjij
For people who haven't been following this , the discussions you felt were attacks are in the links below.
http://www.newagefraud.org/smf/index.php?topic=2456.0This first one is the discussion with Ardy, and Apukjij, I agree, and I now understand that she is who she says she is, and my suspisions about her identity were wrong. I'm really sorry for that.
When I didn't understand her response to my question about the obituary which appeared to say Ardy was Carl Trask, and i told her I really was a Porcupine, I think that is the first time , in participating here , that IMO I have been outright rude to someone, and I really regret that.
Personally I feel really bad about that, because that was rude . And i don't think it is good to be rude to anyone. I guess it is a good thing I tried this on someone who actually was who she said she was, as I won't be doing that again.
But I am the one who looks like an idiot not Ardy...
But I don't regret expressing concerns about her public blanket condemnation of the elected leadership of her Nation, or asking about why she calls herself a Chief.
That discussion about Ardy got split into another thread on Treaty benificiaries, because i asked about why you and Ardy seemed to be trying to encourage PODIAs to feel they deserved to be included as individual benificiaries, rather than seeing these treaties as Nation to Nation. That discussion is below
http://www.newagefraud.org/smf/index.php?topic=2459.0And , again, I feel really bad that I came across as badgering you. I guess i don't tolerate what seems to be people contradicting themselves very well, but I feel really bad that I got distracted by your personality. Because the issues are whats important, not me trying to force you to conform to my own ideas about clear communication. And I am also really sorry about that.
I have also felt attacked in this discussion, and attacked by you Apukjj, but really , I don't think thats important... And it's hard to know how people intend things, so why should I assume the worst?
I posted this link with information about CAP quite a while ago and even discussed some of this with you privately last September, shortly after you joined NAFPS .
http://docs.google.com/View?id=dcwzmv4g_60dzqrvcgp At that point I thought we seemed on friendly terms, and I thought you also had some concerns. Maybe I misunderstood your response.
Because now it seems this whole post is because you are taking what I posted about CAP yesterday, in the thread on Treaty benificiaries and PODIAs, as something personal ?
( In the second newagefraud link above )
what I posted yesterday is below...
http://docs.google.com/View?id=dcwzmv4g_121d9rjrpdvMy research on CAP began quite a while before you joined NAFPS. I've mentioned this in PMs with various people including Al, and my original concerns about this have nothing to do with you. I'm sorry you are interpreting this as a personal attack. It really isn't.
This only came up in relation to you, because in the thread on Acadian Metis in NAFPS, and on facebook, I saw you suggesting to PODIAs that they join the CAP affiliate in your area.
Which did make me wonder...
But you are making a mistake to think this is personal or that I am only bringing this up to make you uncomfortable.
Personally, this situation feels really crappy for me. :'( I really don't enjoy pointing out things people don't want to hear, when I would rather get along with these people . I'd like it if people such as yourself liked me. I don't want anyone to think I am a jerk, especially not people who are actual Native people who are trying to help their people . It would be so much easier and probably more personally rewarding for me if I just accepted the support you gave me initially, and didn't ask any questions.
But if I'm right about CAPs underlying agenda, it's a lot more important for me to bring this to peoples attention, and ask questions that may make all of us uncomfortable, than to say things people want to hear, just because i want you to like me.
And if I'm wrong and there is no truth in what I am saying, well , you are free to point this out and defend CAP.
But Apukjij, maybe it is CAP that is the Emporer who doesn't really have any clothes.
And if that is true, why does someone saying it bother you ?